The Band Bus

I found this entry in an old journal and it reminded me why I went to the PSU writers, um, thing. This is some of the best writing I've ever done, even though I'm pretty sure it was done late at night when I could barely grip a pencil. Here it is...

Yup, I'm an airhead. 2/3 of the way through 8th grade and I finally remember to write back. You can't blame me though, I've had a lot on my plate. Lately I've been releasing my inner sci-fi geek. I'm way into Star Wars, rekindling my obsession with Harry Potter, and reminissing over the melencholy epic that is, was, and always will be the Lord of the Rings. Decades from now, I'll be fighting back tears while telling my grandchildren that I lived in the age of kings reborn. Movies come and go but LOTR remained like a diamond set against stone. Why do gread epics end with the return of something once great? LORT>The Return of the King. SW> Return of the Jedi. I cried to the sobering thought that this is the end of LOTR. No more of these early Christmas presents. No more pouring over Google images to find a new picture. It's over and that's that. I'm not going to read the last page of Book 7 of HP. I never want it to end. I alread know, that after reading the very last of HP that I'm going to spend my time in my room, silently sobbing. Why do all good things have to come to an end while the bad endure? Within 10 years (2000-2010) I've seen and am going to see the hollow send off of kings.

Sir, your Super IQ score is 133

Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test. We also determined the way you process information.

The way you think about things makes you a Creative Theorist. This means you are a highly intelligent, complex person. You are able to process information of nearly every kind with ease, using both creativity and analysis to make sense of the world. Compared to others you also have a very rich imagination.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Creative Theorist? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Creative Theorist. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.

AIN I SPECIAL!!?!?!

This trip (so far) in numbers...

>Hottest temp...111
>Pooping/Peeing Animals...5
>Bunnies...4
>Prarie Dogs...4
>Miles driven so far...about 1400
>Times I've wanted to jump off a cliff cuz it's so hot...8
>Amount of Roadkill...I can't count that high
>Times I've gotten jittery cuz I can't get online...1 (it started when we left and didn't stop)
>Highest gas price...$2.59 (damn!)
>Times that I've colored outside the lines...12 (I'm getting better!)
>Times that I've read the end of HP and the Half Blood Prince hoping Dumbledore's not dead...5

OMG! It feels so good to get back to posting on my blog. I was beginning to get separation anxieties (which I get with my digital camera as well)!! A lot of, well, rather odd things have happened during the first half of this trip but I can't give a complete description so here it is in bullet points...
Day 1...
>Go Bake Allstars!
>Demonic flies
>FINALLY understood the Staples logo
>When in a haunted house, I narrated in British
>The Rustic Emu Farmer of the West
>Found speeder/shoe/fish clouds. (the speeder took a while cuz i had to find one that i really liked with an open cockpit and the right speed capabilities)
>"Flash Me" written on trucks with old guys driving them
>"Got Pipe?" pipe

Day 2...
>Separation Anxieties from camera
> Odd billboards (ex. "Doctor Thong's" and "Just think of me as a big turn signal. -Billboard")
>We have entered Morman Country
>Watch out for that Escalade!!
>OMGWTFBUNNY!

Day 3...
>"Are there fish in Yellowstone?" (that question was asked by a kid about 1 or 2 yrs younger then me)
>Me+Heat=BOOOOOOOM!!!
>Ringo Star meets the Southwest
>"That's tight" said by punk looking guys about a picture of a landscape.
>Making the tough choices
>I officially realized that I hate heat
>In the end, it's just a place w/ rocks, heat and pokey bushes
>A bored mind laughs at anything
>Dessert wood is pretty sweet

Day 4...
>PMS+Heat=REALLY REALLY BAD!
>Red Lobster waiters are HOT!!
>"Welcome to Colorful Colorado!" is what a sign read in a frickin dessert!
>Boredom+Me=Lame math problems
>Sitting in a car creates a one-sided tan

Well, that's pretty much all that's happened so far. If I get a chance to update, I will.

1)Watched the same bug keep flying into the window for 15 minutes.
2)Stroked my volume of the Half Blood Prince until I realized it was kinda creepy (5 minutes later)
3)Tried to hold my fist so tight so that it would draw blood (which wasn't that painful), until my nail bent backwards (which was extremely painful) and I stopped.
4)Pondered whether I should eat potato chips from the full bag or the nearly empty bad (but never ended up eating any of them)
5)Realized that my life's really boring and, instead of doing a top 10 list, stopped at 5

Tomorow is the greatly anticipated release of HP and the Half Blood Prince!!OMG! I'M SOOOOOO EXCITED!!!! So, naturally, I'm gonna spend ever waking moment of the weekend reading it. Don't worry, I'm not dead. And, if I'm so inclined, I'll read it again! MWAHAHAHA!!! And then, on Tuesday (which I, for no apparent reason, have dubbed Turtle Day) I'm leaving for a 2 week road trip. I'm hoping that some of the places that we're staying at have internet access so I can update it as we go. If I do end up adding my trip journal, it will be on my sister blog, bleedingpen.blogspot.com.

Lately, I've been taking a lot of quizzes. I don't know why. Maybe it's cuz they're fun or I have some personal insecurities or it's a nice quite thing to do while listening to my Princess Mononoke soundtrack. Whatever the reason, I've found that a common question is "What do you think of life?" Everytime I see it, I never know what to answer. It's not wholy evil and it's never entirely good. Why do people ask the question and expect an honest answer? Don't we only really know the answer to it once we're good and dead. For Christ sake, I'm 14. Everytime, I try and pick the most neutral answer like "It is what it is."

Another common question is "What do you think of Love?" I'm sure the quiz makers don't know this but I've never been in love. On this question, instead of going neutral, I pick the most depressing answer such as "It's a stabbing pain that we must endure," because, for me, it is. Never being loved is as painful as losing love. I've had my crushes but I never tell the guy. Because of that, I will always feel the regret of what could have been. Even if it was only for a day, even if they said no, the fixation on that one person would end and I could go back to being whole. But I have a deep fear of rejection and have kept all these feelings bottled up inside. I don't think I'll ever tell them because it's nice having a secret that I'm not ashamed of.

Why am I even writing all of this? I dunno, maybe I'm hoping to release some of the burden but I'm sitting here and I still feel the weight. Oh well, perhaps we're all meant to have some baggage. Maybe that's what keeps us grounded. So, going back to the first question, "What do you think of life?", I guess my answer is, "We'll see."

Thanks to the brilliant work of a meganame generator, I now know my Star Wars name, among others. It's Saremi Kehjer, or should I say Jedi Master Saremi Kehjer. *nasal laugh**snort*. And I only got 29.38856% on the Geek Test. I'm only a TOTAL GEEK! Oh well, I know i'm atleast 80% geek and that's all that matters.

Mace Windu 75%
Anakin Skywalker 72%
Obi Wan Kenobi 64%
Chewbacca 64%
Padme Amidala 64%
Clone Trooper 58%
Darth Vader 53%
Yoda 47%
General Grievous 44%
C-3PO 42%
R2-D2 42%
Emperor Palpatine 36%

http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=34136

Well, my insanity has been proven through the sophisticated mind of an internet test. Apparently i have Avoidant personality disorder:
What is Avoidant Personality Disorder?
Quick Summary:
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. Avoidants are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidants yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

So, if you see me staring into space, don't bug me cuz i'm fighting the Arch Wizard of the Dark Forest Clan. Here's the full summary of the test...

I can't believe it!!! Now I'm ashamed to be an American. There was a terrorist attack in London today and, as far as I know, 33 Brits dead. When I heard, I was like "OMG!" and then I started channel surfing to find a better coverage of it. Granted, it didn't take long cuz I was watching the TV with no cable but I made a startling discovery: America doesn't give a damn about anyone else. The only channels that were covering it were the channels that didn't have anything else to talk about, like CNN, MSNBC, and others. I was thinking, "Britain is the only other country that supports our insane occupation of Iraq, you could atleast show them some sympathy." Uh, my attention span just died. I'm done

Here I am, sitting on the roof, listening to Train's "Calling All Angels", when I hear some guy spitting profanities at this other guy, and the 40 something girlfriend attempting to stop it. Up till that point, I was mulling over some profound thoughts to myself about music and the impact that it has on our lives, so you can see how a conversation whose vocabulary was based on the words "fuck" and "shit" sent me into a fit of silent histerics. It was our own private Jerry Springer.

I didn't come in at the beginning of this public disterbance so I'm still not sure what it was about. All I know was that it was between "Piece of Shit" and "Mother Fucker", or atleast that's what they addressed eachother as. I believe Mother Fucker was the one with the girlfriend whose name was never spoken so I just decided to call her "Squeaker Blonde" after her Barbie hair cut and mouse like voice. To this day, she still reminds me of the woman on "Mars Attacks" taht had her head sewn onto the body of her dog.

The arguement continued without any increase or decrease in the two men's tempers, when I heard one yell out, with somewhat more conviction then his previous words, "I'LL CALL THE POLICE!" That was the straw that broke the camel's back, for me and them. For me, the statement was so hillarious taht the built up laughter ended up being released in two, clearly audible snorts. Squeaker Blonde snatched up her boyfriend's arm and dragged him back to their miniscule Spectacle of Lights, much like an owner would dray their dog from a treed cat.

I know these people are over-the-hill 40 & 50-Somethings with a desire to be younger but I never thougth they'd stoop to the level of 5 and 6 year olds. This was a despute similar to the things that I did in early grade school, only with a less colorful vocabulary. I have expected them to say, "I'll tell teacher!" instead of, "I'll call the police!". First graders have the capabilities of reasoning that my neighbors have. (I appoligize 1st graders. What I said was somewhat demening for you.)

As the fun was breaking up, I turned back to watch the spectacle at hand, whispering sarcastically, "Happy 4th of July to you, too."

Now that it's the 4th of July, I find it's the perfect time to say how much America's fucked up. Let's begin, shall we, with the Uberly wonderful list-o-matic.
1)Bush is in power
2)Religion is running the country
3)Bush is in power
4)If the election were held today, Bush would get creamed. Come on guys, where were you in November?
5)Republicans (aka, Bush & Friends) are in power
6)The Terri Shivo case still lives (even if she doesn't)
7)People are concentrated on nonsence, moralistic (is that even a word?) kind of issues like gay marrige and pro life/pro choice because that's the only thing that Dubya understands.
8)Teens, who are perhaps the most enlightened because we're in school and regularly have debates and have to defend our opinions, aren't allowed to vote
9)Very few people, democrats included, give a damn about the environment.
10)Britney Spears has her own reality show

Well, that's the top ten but the list can sadly go on and on.