Dang it. I can run as fast as I wan, but it's still going to catch up with me. Argh, I have a crush on someone. Technically, two someones, but one doesn't count, seeing that he's a celebrity and at least quadrupal my age (I speak of the uber sexy Jeremy Irons, whose picture (for my pleasure) you may find below). the name of the other someone, however...that is something to be known only between me and my cats. And probably the fish, seeing as he's a nosey little bugger.
So, yeah, this crush...well, I already know going inot it that it'll never culminate into anything, but hope knows no logic. You know what I really want to do with him? Take him into my basement, get on the couch, and....watch a movie. My needs are that simple. If that movie watching evolved into video game playing, I could totally go for that.
What sucks, though, is that I thought I'd be spared that portion of High School this year. Ugh, relationships that weren't....You're all familiar with the Jeremy saga, are you not? Now there's one rollercoaster I'm no inclined to throw up on again. No sir. Yet here I am, swooning. Friggin' hormones.
So, yeah, this crush...well, I already know going inot it that it'll never culminate into anything, but hope knows no logic. You know what I really want to do with him? Take him into my basement, get on the couch, and....watch a movie. My needs are that simple. If that movie watching evolved into video game playing, I could totally go for that.
What sucks, though, is that I thought I'd be spared that portion of High School this year. Ugh, relationships that weren't....You're all familiar with the Jeremy saga, are you not? Now there's one rollercoaster I'm no inclined to throw up on again. No sir. Yet here I am, swooning. Friggin' hormones.
I want you to read the comments from "Billowy Capes of Pwnage". Find the one that doesn't really belong? Ok, now I want you to read "Wincing the Night Away" on Bre's blog. Then read the comments on "Billowy Capes of Pwnage." Find where it goes?
Yeah....I was so preoccupied with other stuff last week that I posted a comment for Bre's post on my blog. I think some pity is in order right about now.
Oh, speaking of Finals, I think I did pretty darn good on all of 'em. My percentage in Physics actually went up (wtf?) and everything else pretty much stayed the same.
I'm gonna miss my stupidity. (That's an actual sentance I wrote. My mind is still elsewhere. Here's the sentance I meant to write....)
I'm gonna miss Game Programming. That was possibly the most fun class I've ever had. It gave me a chance to geek out, and the bus ride gave me a chance to wind down. Plus, I had first lunch...*tear*
But, yeah, I just wanted to mention the little comment mistake I made last week. I found it rather hillarious.
Yeah....I was so preoccupied with other stuff last week that I posted a comment for Bre's post on my blog. I think some pity is in order right about now.
Oh, speaking of Finals, I think I did pretty darn good on all of 'em. My percentage in Physics actually went up (wtf?) and everything else pretty much stayed the same.
I'm gonna miss my stupidity. (That's an actual sentance I wrote. My mind is still elsewhere. Here's the sentance I meant to write....)
I'm gonna miss Game Programming. That was possibly the most fun class I've ever had. It gave me a chance to geek out, and the bus ride gave me a chance to wind down. Plus, I had first lunch...*tear*
But, yeah, I just wanted to mention the little comment mistake I made last week. I found it rather hillarious.
There's something I've been dreading for the good part of a year now. I've shed a good many tears on this fear, and devoted several restless nights to it. I was outrunning it for a time, for things seemed strong, and I suppose they were. As of late, things have been changing. Things are turning down paths I cannot go.
While it pains me to say that my fears are becoming actualized, it's nowhere near the pain I imagined it to be a year ago. Sorrow, yes, but not overwhelming depression, as I predicted. It's an unfortunate happening, but it does feel right somehow.
I am me. I cannot change that. I cannot do certain things or act certain ways. Not even for you.
I'll cherrish the years when nothing could come between us. We have lived through some tough things and we've never faultered, save for the passing of time. It would be lovely to rewind, but I'm through wishing for that. I know it's futile. Besides, I'm becoming me, and it's someone I can be proud of. At the same time, you are becoming you, and I pray it's someone you can be proud of as well.
I wish you all the luck in the coming years, if I am no longer a part of them.
While it pains me to say that my fears are becoming actualized, it's nowhere near the pain I imagined it to be a year ago. Sorrow, yes, but not overwhelming depression, as I predicted. It's an unfortunate happening, but it does feel right somehow.
I am me. I cannot change that. I cannot do certain things or act certain ways. Not even for you.
I'll cherrish the years when nothing could come between us. We have lived through some tough things and we've never faultered, save for the passing of time. It would be lovely to rewind, but I'm through wishing for that. I know it's futile. Besides, I'm becoming me, and it's someone I can be proud of. At the same time, you are becoming you, and I pray it's someone you can be proud of as well.
I wish you all the luck in the coming years, if I am no longer a part of them.
I've been watching Kingdom of Heaven a lot lately, and you know what I've come to realize? It would be awesome to have a billowy cape. They make dramatic storm offs far more convincing. Jeremy Irons' (*swoon*) character does this a lot (he plays the semi-drunkish, angsty type), and it just looks so cool! You can be all "I ain't listenin' to you, bitch, 'cause I don't care, I do what I want!" and then dramaticly storm-off with your cape billowing behind you. Ok, perhaps the words don't exactly match the image, but the bottom line is thus: large capes make hissy fits far more enjoyable.
Don't believe me? Then I advise you to speak with Billowy Cape Man.
Don't believe me? Then I advise you to speak with Billowy Cape Man.
Wow, I'm in a really good mood right now, because I finally got five stars on Free Bird. Woohoo! That being said, I'm really sorry about the hiatus. It's been, what, two, three weeks? Jeeze. Again, I appoligize. Whenever I go on the computer, I end up checking my email, but then the ADD kicks in, and then I start playing World of Warcraft. Jebus, that game is adddicting, especially once you find people you actually know on there. I was questing with Chris E. last night, and I created a charater on Gnomeregan today, because I think Nick said he and Welker have low level characters on that server. I'm sure you're ever so glad that I just gave you those tidbits of info, but that's been my life for the past...I dunno, few weeks?
Recently, as y'all know, life's been a bit crazy. Ian's party, our slaughtered backboard, stocks. Oh, apparently L.O. killed us on Saturday, but thankfuly spared the hoops. That Love guy scored 36 points in that game, so if we played just him, we'd have won...by two points.
I've forgotten what an amazingly good movie the Fellowship of the Ring is. It's, like, really, really good. Truth be told, I haven't watched it all the way through since...oh man, I don't even know when. My extended DVD skips at about the part when Sauruman is using the plantir. I think. And then when the movie's shown on TNT, I don't come in until well after the halfway mark. So, yeah, that's an awesome movie. You should watch it. Again.
I had a rather odd mini-revelation earlier this week. One of my favorite music genres is...Alternative Folk. The World Spins Madly On, Orange Sky, the Blower's Daughter, and Waterfall are all amazing songs, and apparently they're alternative folk. Folk! Who'da thought...
Road trip reservations are finally complete. We got done planning everything, then realized there was one day that we totally skipped over, so we added another day at the Austria Hoff Lodge (Yosemite area). That'll be cool, because there's yet another canyon south of there I'd like to see. Of course, by this time in the trip, I'll, in all likelihood, be, like "Seriously? Another freakin' canyon?" Ahh...summer just can't come fast enough.
I finally had it with Logan. Y'all know me. You know that it takes a helluva lot to take me to the breaking point. That should give you an idea of just how abnoxious this guy is. Before break, I called him an ass, which felt pretty damn good. In Game Programming, our final is to develope our own game, and I was able to get into a group with Quinn, Robby, Gabe, this Clackamas kid, and no Logan! Yay! To top it all off, they went with my idea. I really hope we get it up and running, because I'd love for you guys to play it.
Sorry about the pure babbling. After a two-and-a-half week hiatus, you should atleast get some lengthly, polically charged rant, but, hey, at least it's something. I could say that I'll try and be more on top of things this year--holy shit, I just realized this is the first post of the new year! -- but I'd just be lying out my ass. Finals are coming up, and you can expect me to be irritable from now until the end of January. Wooty-freakin'-woot.
Recently, as y'all know, life's been a bit crazy. Ian's party, our slaughtered backboard, stocks. Oh, apparently L.O. killed us on Saturday, but thankfuly spared the hoops. That Love guy scored 36 points in that game, so if we played just him, we'd have won...by two points.
I've forgotten what an amazingly good movie the Fellowship of the Ring is. It's, like, really, really good. Truth be told, I haven't watched it all the way through since...oh man, I don't even know when. My extended DVD skips at about the part when Sauruman is using the plantir. I think. And then when the movie's shown on TNT, I don't come in until well after the halfway mark. So, yeah, that's an awesome movie. You should watch it. Again.
I had a rather odd mini-revelation earlier this week. One of my favorite music genres is...Alternative Folk. The World Spins Madly On, Orange Sky, the Blower's Daughter, and Waterfall are all amazing songs, and apparently they're alternative folk. Folk! Who'da thought...
Road trip reservations are finally complete. We got done planning everything, then realized there was one day that we totally skipped over, so we added another day at the Austria Hoff Lodge (Yosemite area). That'll be cool, because there's yet another canyon south of there I'd like to see. Of course, by this time in the trip, I'll, in all likelihood, be, like "Seriously? Another freakin' canyon?" Ahh...summer just can't come fast enough.
I finally had it with Logan. Y'all know me. You know that it takes a helluva lot to take me to the breaking point. That should give you an idea of just how abnoxious this guy is. Before break, I called him an ass, which felt pretty damn good. In Game Programming, our final is to develope our own game, and I was able to get into a group with Quinn, Robby, Gabe, this Clackamas kid, and no Logan! Yay! To top it all off, they went with my idea. I really hope we get it up and running, because I'd love for you guys to play it.
Sorry about the pure babbling. After a two-and-a-half week hiatus, you should atleast get some lengthly, polically charged rant, but, hey, at least it's something. I could say that I'll try and be more on top of things this year--holy shit, I just realized this is the first post of the new year! -- but I'd just be lying out my ass. Finals are coming up, and you can expect me to be irritable from now until the end of January. Wooty-freakin'-woot.
