For Oolong (1997-2003)
Wanna know a sad fact? Everytime I do something, I think about how I'll word it on my newest post. So, at the Homecoming dance, I was taking mental notes of things I should include. I forgot all but one thing: Scott or Andrea"Dogs have phones?" Me"Oh, so that's why coyotes sound so sad. They have huge overage charges" and then laughter ensued. That was at the beginning when my spirits where high from sheer excitement. After all, it was my first major high school dance. My feelings quickly fell from "Oh my god, this is gonna be awsome" to "I paid $8 for THIS?" Never again will I go to another dance.
It seemed like the seed for fun. Bre and Andrea were both there, and Jeremy to top it off. What happened, though, was Jeremy spent the whole time on the bleachers with Nia in his lap (the sight was excrutiating) and Andrea and Bre pretty much just ignored me. They were the only reason I went to this fucking dance and they pretty much just blew me off.
I should've seen this dance disaster coming, though. I mean, it's called a DANCE, implying that one must dance. I both hate and suck at dancing so there wasn't any light coming out of that tunnel. Another sign was the fact that it seemed like everyone was going. I don't like socializing, unless it's with one or two friends. Any more people and I'm buried by my more boisterous and outgoing friends (being all of them).
Another depressing piece of information that was gathered today was the abolishment of any hope that Andrea won't move. Their realator (or whatever type of person she was) informed them of what their house was worth. To me, it was worth a lifetime of memories and a home. To them, whatever the money worth was was enough to buy this new house they are looking at. When I first heard that they were going to move, I spent a good hour crying in my room. I couldn't stand the thought of not seeing Andrea ever day. I didn't want to loose our friendship. Now, though, something's changed. Whether it's the cruel laughter at cruel jokes or the constant obsession with the materialistic things, I've begun to realize that the Andrea that's leaving isn't the Andrea that I know and love and this new one deserves no tears at all.
It seemed like the seed for fun. Bre and Andrea were both there, and Jeremy to top it off. What happened, though, was Jeremy spent the whole time on the bleachers with Nia in his lap (the sight was excrutiating) and Andrea and Bre pretty much just ignored me. They were the only reason I went to this fucking dance and they pretty much just blew me off.
I should've seen this dance disaster coming, though. I mean, it's called a DANCE, implying that one must dance. I both hate and suck at dancing so there wasn't any light coming out of that tunnel. Another sign was the fact that it seemed like everyone was going. I don't like socializing, unless it's with one or two friends. Any more people and I'm buried by my more boisterous and outgoing friends (being all of them).
Another depressing piece of information that was gathered today was the abolishment of any hope that Andrea won't move. Their realator (or whatever type of person she was) informed them of what their house was worth. To me, it was worth a lifetime of memories and a home. To them, whatever the money worth was was enough to buy this new house they are looking at. When I first heard that they were going to move, I spent a good hour crying in my room. I couldn't stand the thought of not seeing Andrea ever day. I didn't want to loose our friendship. Now, though, something's changed. Whether it's the cruel laughter at cruel jokes or the constant obsession with the materialistic things, I've begun to realize that the Andrea that's leaving isn't the Andrea that I know and love and this new one deserves no tears at all.
For the first time this year, we didn't have a game on Friday. My hopes of going to Friday Night Frenzy, though, were short lived. Bre asked me to come with her to a La Salle game and I couldn't say no. Besides, I missed Becca.
The game was pretty much like any other high school football games (a lot of talking, not a lot of watching). I was surprised to find that both Scott and Becca kinda sorta like me. In fact, I'm surprised when I find out anyone likes me. How they got that crazy idea is beyond me.
Anyways...
I expected the stereotypical catholic school. Overall nice people, rather pathetic cheerleaders, and a really bad football team. Well, this hasn't been my week for right answers and I landed a 1/3. Yeah, their football team was, surprisingly, worse than ours. The cheerleaders, though, rocked (Becca's a cheerleader so how could they not). One of the funniest things that night was seeing Becca and noticing that she was the tallest (or one of the tallest) on the team. Becca's TINY. She has to wear her high heeled, pointy toe shoes just to be eye level with everyone else.
Becca believes that if she went to Rex Putnam, she'd get raped or molested or something else to that extent. Well, we agreed with her until we actually visited the school. That night, I witnessed more language, more "OMG, they did NOT just do that in public!", and more naked guys then I have in the past month and a half at Putnam.
Despite having crappy bleachers that probably haven't changed since my dad went there (early 70's), having no cover for the bleachers, and having a very tiny cheering section, La Salle did have a few things that Putnam sadly does not. The best part: they have streakers. Why do they get streakers and we don't? They're Catholic for Christ sakes! Another thing that they have and we don't is a mascot. They we able to get someone to walk around in a blue bird suit but we can't even get a guy to trot a horse across the field. At La Salle games, creepy people can get their Furry fix. When we're getting creamed, we need a half time pick-me-up. Hey, maybe our newly named streakers could run along side him.
La Salle has nearly perfected the art of the pep: they have kick-ass cheerleaders, streakers at halftime, and a dude wearing a bird costume. But there's one thing that we have 'em beat on. Pep Band. Oh ya. We rock. Our entire Concert band can drown them out. It's LITTLE! They have 1 or 2 flutes, 1 or 2 clarinets, 1 bari sax, 3 percusionists, 2 trombones, and a couple other things that I can't quite recal. They lack the passion of the Pep. It's rather sad, because when your team's getting creamed 7-42, everyone could sure use a a blaring rendition of the Hey Song. Being a band member, believe me, it helps.
The game was pretty much like any other high school football games (a lot of talking, not a lot of watching). I was surprised to find that both Scott and Becca kinda sorta like me. In fact, I'm surprised when I find out anyone likes me. How they got that crazy idea is beyond me.
Anyways...
I expected the stereotypical catholic school. Overall nice people, rather pathetic cheerleaders, and a really bad football team. Well, this hasn't been my week for right answers and I landed a 1/3. Yeah, their football team was, surprisingly, worse than ours. The cheerleaders, though, rocked (Becca's a cheerleader so how could they not). One of the funniest things that night was seeing Becca and noticing that she was the tallest (or one of the tallest) on the team. Becca's TINY. She has to wear her high heeled, pointy toe shoes just to be eye level with everyone else.
Becca believes that if she went to Rex Putnam, she'd get raped or molested or something else to that extent. Well, we agreed with her until we actually visited the school. That night, I witnessed more language, more "OMG, they did NOT just do that in public!", and more naked guys then I have in the past month and a half at Putnam.
Despite having crappy bleachers that probably haven't changed since my dad went there (early 70's), having no cover for the bleachers, and having a very tiny cheering section, La Salle did have a few things that Putnam sadly does not. The best part: they have streakers. Why do they get streakers and we don't? They're Catholic for Christ sakes! Another thing that they have and we don't is a mascot. They we able to get someone to walk around in a blue bird suit but we can't even get a guy to trot a horse across the field. At La Salle games, creepy people can get their Furry fix. When we're getting creamed, we need a half time pick-me-up. Hey, maybe our newly named streakers could run along side him.
La Salle has nearly perfected the art of the pep: they have kick-ass cheerleaders, streakers at halftime, and a dude wearing a bird costume. But there's one thing that we have 'em beat on. Pep Band. Oh ya. We rock. Our entire Concert band can drown them out. It's LITTLE! They have 1 or 2 flutes, 1 or 2 clarinets, 1 bari sax, 3 percusionists, 2 trombones, and a couple other things that I can't quite recal. They lack the passion of the Pep. It's rather sad, because when your team's getting creamed 7-42, everyone could sure use a a blaring rendition of the Hey Song. Being a band member, believe me, it helps.
To Jeremy:
Ok, there's something I've wanted to tell you for a long time, but I've been too shy to say it. I like you. A lot. Maybe you already knew, maybe you didn't. Now you know for sure. Every time I'm around you, I'm the happiest I've ever been. Saying goodbye to you at the end of 8th grade was one of the hardest things I've done. If you don't feel the same way towards me, that's fine. Atleast you know I feel. Also, I want you to know that I've writen this letter about 4 times but I've finally summoned up the courage to send it.
To Me:
at least you have curage (and can spell things) i cant tell people o like them if my life depended on it so......yeah thats cool im happy to know some one cares about me.........but why do you like me?
To Jeremy:
Well, i first liked u because i thought u were hot (u are, don't deny it) but once i started to get to know u i found u were nice and funny and sweet and *sigh* just one of the greatest guys i've ever met. So, ya, that's why i like u.
To Me:
i think im ugly as hell i dont know what you mean hot thanks for the comp you should call me some time 503-659-2616 im funny and sweet?
So, I finally told him (in an email). I thought it would make me feel relieved. I figured if I didn't tell him, I'd forever regret it. Now, I'm regretting opening my mouth at all. It was a mistake. I know that now. But it was a risk, I acknowledge that. I just hope that, when we have to go back to school on Monday, we'll still be friends. I couldn't bear to loose that.
Ok, there's something I've wanted to tell you for a long time, but I've been too shy to say it. I like you. A lot. Maybe you already knew, maybe you didn't. Now you know for sure. Every time I'm around you, I'm the happiest I've ever been. Saying goodbye to you at the end of 8th grade was one of the hardest things I've done. If you don't feel the same way towards me, that's fine. Atleast you know I feel. Also, I want you to know that I've writen this letter about 4 times but I've finally summoned up the courage to send it.
To Me:
at least you have curage (and can spell things) i cant tell people o like them if my life depended on it so......yeah thats cool im happy to know some one cares about me.........but why do you like me?
To Jeremy:
Well, i first liked u because i thought u were hot (u are, don't deny it) but once i started to get to know u i found u were nice and funny and sweet and *sigh* just one of the greatest guys i've ever met. So, ya, that's why i like u.
To Me:
i think im ugly as hell i dont know what you mean hot thanks for the comp you should call me some time 503-659-2616 im funny and sweet?
So, I finally told him (in an email). I thought it would make me feel relieved. I figured if I didn't tell him, I'd forever regret it. Now, I'm regretting opening my mouth at all. It was a mistake. I know that now. But it was a risk, I acknowledge that. I just hope that, when we have to go back to school on Monday, we'll still be friends. I couldn't bear to loose that.
NO! YOU'LL NEVER TAKE ME ALIVE!!
A Q and A with me (warning: it's long)
3 Comments Published by Elentine on Tuesday, October 04, 2005 at 9:50 PM.
Friday, April 15, 2005
Your full name:: Sarah Rebecca "Do you have a pencil?" Kehoe
Age:: 14
Height:: 5'6.5" ish
Natural hair colour:: uh, darkish/medium brown
Number of siblings:: 0, but my parents treat my dog like a baby so 5
Glasses/contacts?:: nope. I would like the contacts that turn your eyes different colors. blue or red would be awsome!
Piercings:: ears
Tattoos:: maybe someday. it'd end up looking really weird when I'm older though
Braces?:: I'll reach that gate of doom someday
FAVOURITE
Colour:: green, purple, blue, brown. Pretty much anything earthy or would look cool on a lightsaber
Bands:: REX PUTNAM HIGH SCHOOL PEP BAND!!(oh yah! We ROCK!!) Green Day, other stuff...
Song:: Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls or Mad World by Gary Jules
Stuffed animal:: My dog stole all of my stuffed animals. I no longer have any
Video game:: Star Wars Battlefront, Sims 2, Rise of Nations (I need the expansion pack)
TV show:: LOST!!!! (member of BMA, Boone Mourners Anonymus)
Movie:: Crap, only one? The whole Star Wars saga I guess (1 & 2 sucked but they did have awsome effects and Ewan was as hot all hell)
Book:: The Sight, Firebringer, HP, LOTR, ect...
Food:: Anything drenched in cheese
Scent:: mmm...gasoline (I love the smell of dying brain cells), the first rain when everything is all fresh, and (you tell no one) feet
Animal:: wolfies, horsies, eaglies, llama, and rubber duckies (is that an animal?)
Comic book:: Chobits, Oh My Goddess, and Love Hina (once I finally get it!!)
Cereal:: um...something loaded with sugar
Website:: www.starwars.com, www.blogger.com (I love you guys), www.quizilla.com, Cartoon:: Anything Anime, The Simpsons, and Family Guy
DO YOU
Play an instrument?: FLUTE POWER!!!!
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: Only about 30 hrs of tv. Atleast 60 hrs of movies and video games though
Like to sing?:: For national security reasons, noHave a job?:: I'm a student at RPHS. It's full time and the pay SUCKS!
Have a cell phone?:: god, I wish. I'd get one that takes pictures and then never use the phone part
Like to play sports?:: Archery. It's an obscure sport
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: no, and don't remind me
someone?:: *confused* yes...um...I am someone
Have any special talents/skills?:: I can spin in a circle for hours on end and not get sick. And I'm an @$$ kicking mother f***** on the dance mat.
Excercise daily?:: dance mat, to enhance my skills
Like school?:: Ya, I guess. But when I have to go to the chiropractor after excusiating back pain, it might loose its appeal
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: Z Y X W V U T S R...something else...nope
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: hmm...let's see...*tries but hears a crack* owww...nope
Speak any other languages?:: I can speak a little elvish and a little french
Go a day without food?:: As long as I eat like a cow the day before
Roll your tongue?:: ya see *rolls toung*
Eat a whole pizza?:: a child size pizza
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: no, but I could. I can get onto my roof and the roof is pretty low to the ground
Cried to get out of trouble?:: nope. I'm not the crying type, unless a doggy dies
Gotten lost in your city?:: nope, that'll come when I turn 21
Seen a shooting star?:: n- ooo, pretty yes
Had a serious surgery?:: I got a bone taken out of my leg and a chunk of my lung removed but in my opinion it wasn't major (in my opinion)
Stolen something important to someone else?:: By accident and the police never caught me...mwahahaha
Solved a rubiks cube?:: EVIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: ALL THE TIME!! It's a tradition (in my small group of friends) to go to the movie theater in pajama pants
Cried over a girl?:: nope
Cried over a boy?:: nada
Kissed a random stranger?:: nine (the German word for "no". I haven't hugged 9 random people)
Hugged a random stranger?:: nilch, wait, yes
Been in a fist fight?:: my left fist vs. my right fist, yes
Been arrested?:: well, once, my friend and I had to feed our friend's cats and the security system went off while we where trying to get inside. We ran around in circles freaking out. A police car came by and had to question us. Thank god we didn't get finger printed. I'm still clean
Done drugs?:: lots and lots of caffiene
Had alcohol?:: lots and lots. My parents, since I was 5, would let me have sips of their wine but I really love daqueries and margaritas
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: I wish. Some guys piss me off SOOOO much (jesse and echo for example)
Been in love?:: only with inanimate objects
Been to a casino?:: yup. my parents almost got arrested because they kept stopping at the slots while we were walking through
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: I wasn't driving!!
Broken a bone?:: nope
Gotten stitches?:: many, many times
Bitten someone?:: it's my second line of defence
WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: oh shit *runs upstairs and brushes teeth* 2 min ago
Went to the bathroom:: right after I brushed my teeth
Saw a movie in theaters:: 2 weeks ago. The ring 2. Went with a bunch of kids from school It was great. Lisette and I saw Nathaniel, our Jewish (but not really Jewish) friend
Read a book:: Reading a book now
Had a snow day:: last year (ahh...blissful memories)mmm...cocoa...
Had a slumber party:: um...it's been a while
Made fun of someone:: you ask the impossible. How am I supposed to count?
Tripped in front of someone:: Walking normaly in front of someone is a harder question to answer
Got sick:: um...month and a half ago?
Cursed:: see "brushed you teeth"
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: *sniffs* no
If you have, with who?:: I SAID NO!!
Are you single?:: unfortunately, but I learn to cope
Are you in a relationship?:: Isn't that the same question?
If so, for how long?:: GAAAAAAAA!!
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?::God, I hope so
What is your idea of the best date?:: We do nerdy things like curl up on the couch and watch a Star Wars marathon or something
What was your first kiss like?:: If I had one, I'd tell you
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: stalker
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: Only until i experiance it
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?::Just talked without any presure
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: one thing, but it was in 4th grade and it lasted 2 days. I wouldn't really call it a relashionship
Have you ever been dumped?:: Since I wouldn't call it a relashionship, no
Have you ever dumped someone?:: nope. Why would i do that?
I....
am:: nerdy
want:: hmm...food
need:: food,
crave:: food
love:: food (noticing a pattern here?), the rain, and solitude
hate:: being talked down to, peple who rival money over the environment, and mushrooms
feel:: hungry,
miss:: a quiet world without bombs and idiotic polititians
annoyed by:: see "hate"
would rather:: be alone in the woods or living the nerd dream of becoming a Jed
i am tired of:: projects and homework GAAAA (my angry noise)
will always:: be a geek and proud of it
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?:: that's silly? well, okay...um, alternative, I guess
What time is it now?:: 9:00 pm on the dot
Whens the last time you called someone?:: I dunno. A long time ago. (i'm a computer person, not a phone person)
How much money do you have right now?:: I dunno, $30ish
Are you hungry?:: see "want" "need" "crave" and "feel"
Whatcha doin?:: taking this dumb test
Do you like parades?:: only when it rains
Do you like the moon?:: Heck yes! It's as pretty as the sun but it doesn't burn your eyes
What are you going to do when you're done with this?:: I dunno. That's too far into the future
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: To be able to live any book/movie that I want and have any ability that i want in it
Have you ever had a picnic?:: yes, except it was cut short by an army of raging ants and daddy long-legs
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: no, and my toes are ever so cold
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: at times
pretty?:: not really
sarcastic?:: a little too much
lazy?:: UBERLY!
hyper?:: never
friendly?:: to friends
evil?:: to certain things at certain times
smart?:: I'm in Honors house so that's got to say something
strong?:: in mind, not body
talented?:: I can wiggle my nose and do good at archery (not at the same time)
dorky?:: derrrrrrrrrr...yuppy dopey dope!!
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: WTF? I dunno. I think it's white
What kind of computer do you have?:: a fast one
What grade are you in?:: 9th
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?::Why would I do that? Then I can't eat it
Or just make out?:: AGAIN WITH THE BOYFRIEND STUFF!!!! GAHHH!!!
How many posters do you have in your room?:: lots...maybe 9
What timmany cds do you have?:: timmany or too many, cause I certainly have too many! I have no idea what timmany cds are.
What time is it now?:: 6:20 pm (on a different day)
Your full name:: Sarah Rebecca "Do you have a pencil?" Kehoe
Age:: 14
Height:: 5'6.5" ish
Natural hair colour:: uh, darkish/medium brown
Number of siblings:: 0, but my parents treat my dog like a baby so 5
Glasses/contacts?:: nope. I would like the contacts that turn your eyes different colors. blue or red would be awsome!
Piercings:: ears
Tattoos:: maybe someday. it'd end up looking really weird when I'm older though
Braces?:: I'll reach that gate of doom someday
FAVOURITE
Colour:: green, purple, blue, brown. Pretty much anything earthy or would look cool on a lightsaber
Bands:: REX PUTNAM HIGH SCHOOL PEP BAND!!(oh yah! We ROCK!!) Green Day, other stuff...
Song:: Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls or Mad World by Gary Jules
Stuffed animal:: My dog stole all of my stuffed animals. I no longer have any
Video game:: Star Wars Battlefront, Sims 2, Rise of Nations (I need the expansion pack)
TV show:: LOST!!!! (member of BMA, Boone Mourners Anonymus)
Movie:: Crap, only one? The whole Star Wars saga I guess (1 & 2 sucked but they did have awsome effects and Ewan was as hot all hell)
Book:: The Sight, Firebringer, HP, LOTR, ect...
Food:: Anything drenched in cheese
Scent:: mmm...gasoline (I love the smell of dying brain cells), the first rain when everything is all fresh, and (you tell no one) feet
Animal:: wolfies, horsies, eaglies, llama, and rubber duckies (is that an animal?)
Comic book:: Chobits, Oh My Goddess, and Love Hina (once I finally get it!!)
Cereal:: um...something loaded with sugar
Website:: www.starwars.com, www.blogger.com (I love you guys), www.quizilla.com, Cartoon:: Anything Anime, The Simpsons, and Family Guy
DO YOU
Play an instrument?: FLUTE POWER!!!!
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: Only about 30 hrs of tv. Atleast 60 hrs of movies and video games though
Like to sing?:: For national security reasons, noHave a job?:: I'm a student at RPHS. It's full time and the pay SUCKS!
Have a cell phone?:: god, I wish. I'd get one that takes pictures and then never use the phone part
Like to play sports?:: Archery. It's an obscure sport
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: no, and don't remind me
someone?:: *confused* yes...um...I am someone
Have any special talents/skills?:: I can spin in a circle for hours on end and not get sick. And I'm an @$$ kicking mother f***** on the dance mat.
Excercise daily?:: dance mat, to enhance my skills
Like school?:: Ya, I guess. But when I have to go to the chiropractor after excusiating back pain, it might loose its appeal
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: Z Y X W V U T S R...something else...nope
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: hmm...let's see...*tries but hears a crack* owww...nope
Speak any other languages?:: I can speak a little elvish and a little french
Go a day without food?:: As long as I eat like a cow the day before
Roll your tongue?:: ya see *rolls toung*
Eat a whole pizza?:: a child size pizza
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: no, but I could. I can get onto my roof and the roof is pretty low to the ground
Cried to get out of trouble?:: nope. I'm not the crying type, unless a doggy dies
Gotten lost in your city?:: nope, that'll come when I turn 21
Seen a shooting star?:: n- ooo, pretty yes
Had a serious surgery?:: I got a bone taken out of my leg and a chunk of my lung removed but in my opinion it wasn't major (in my opinion)
Stolen something important to someone else?:: By accident and the police never caught me...mwahahaha
Solved a rubiks cube?:: EVIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: ALL THE TIME!! It's a tradition (in my small group of friends) to go to the movie theater in pajama pants
Cried over a girl?:: nope
Cried over a boy?:: nada
Kissed a random stranger?:: nine (the German word for "no". I haven't hugged 9 random people)
Hugged a random stranger?:: nilch, wait, yes
Been in a fist fight?:: my left fist vs. my right fist, yes
Been arrested?:: well, once, my friend and I had to feed our friend's cats and the security system went off while we where trying to get inside. We ran around in circles freaking out. A police car came by and had to question us. Thank god we didn't get finger printed. I'm still clean
Done drugs?:: lots and lots of caffiene
Had alcohol?:: lots and lots. My parents, since I was 5, would let me have sips of their wine but I really love daqueries and margaritas
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: I wish. Some guys piss me off SOOOO much (jesse and echo for example)
Been in love?:: only with inanimate objects
Been to a casino?:: yup. my parents almost got arrested because they kept stopping at the slots while we were walking through
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: I wasn't driving!!
Broken a bone?:: nope
Gotten stitches?:: many, many times
Bitten someone?:: it's my second line of defence
WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: oh shit *runs upstairs and brushes teeth* 2 min ago
Went to the bathroom:: right after I brushed my teeth
Saw a movie in theaters:: 2 weeks ago. The ring 2. Went with a bunch of kids from school It was great. Lisette and I saw Nathaniel, our Jewish (but not really Jewish) friend
Read a book:: Reading a book now
Had a snow day:: last year (ahh...blissful memories)mmm...cocoa...
Had a slumber party:: um...it's been a while
Made fun of someone:: you ask the impossible. How am I supposed to count?
Tripped in front of someone:: Walking normaly in front of someone is a harder question to answer
Got sick:: um...month and a half ago?
Cursed:: see "brushed you teeth"
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: *sniffs* no
If you have, with who?:: I SAID NO!!
Are you single?:: unfortunately, but I learn to cope
Are you in a relationship?:: Isn't that the same question?
If so, for how long?:: GAAAAAAAA!!
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?::God, I hope so
What is your idea of the best date?:: We do nerdy things like curl up on the couch and watch a Star Wars marathon or something
What was your first kiss like?:: If I had one, I'd tell you
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: stalker
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: Only until i experiance it
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?::Just talked without any presure
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: one thing, but it was in 4th grade and it lasted 2 days. I wouldn't really call it a relashionship
Have you ever been dumped?:: Since I wouldn't call it a relashionship, no
Have you ever dumped someone?:: nope. Why would i do that?
I....
am:: nerdy
want:: hmm...food
need:: food,
crave:: food
love:: food (noticing a pattern here?), the rain, and solitude
hate:: being talked down to, peple who rival money over the environment, and mushrooms
feel:: hungry,
miss:: a quiet world without bombs and idiotic polititians
annoyed by:: see "hate"
would rather:: be alone in the woods or living the nerd dream of becoming a Jed
i am tired of:: projects and homework GAAAA (my angry noise)
will always:: be a geek and proud of it
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?:: that's silly? well, okay...um, alternative, I guess
What time is it now?:: 9:00 pm on the dot
Whens the last time you called someone?:: I dunno. A long time ago. (i'm a computer person, not a phone person)
How much money do you have right now?:: I dunno, $30ish
Are you hungry?:: see "want" "need" "crave" and "feel"
Whatcha doin?:: taking this dumb test
Do you like parades?:: only when it rains
Do you like the moon?:: Heck yes! It's as pretty as the sun but it doesn't burn your eyes
What are you going to do when you're done with this?:: I dunno. That's too far into the future
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: To be able to live any book/movie that I want and have any ability that i want in it
Have you ever had a picnic?:: yes, except it was cut short by an army of raging ants and daddy long-legs
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: no, and my toes are ever so cold
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: at times
pretty?:: not really
sarcastic?:: a little too much
lazy?:: UBERLY!
hyper?:: never
friendly?:: to friends
evil?:: to certain things at certain times
smart?:: I'm in Honors house so that's got to say something
strong?:: in mind, not body
talented?:: I can wiggle my nose and do good at archery (not at the same time)
dorky?:: derrrrrrrrrr...yuppy dopey dope!!
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: WTF? I dunno. I think it's white
What kind of computer do you have?:: a fast one
What grade are you in?:: 9th
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?::Why would I do that? Then I can't eat it
Or just make out?:: AGAIN WITH THE BOYFRIEND STUFF!!!! GAHHH!!!
How many posters do you have in your room?:: lots...maybe 9
What timmany cds do you have?:: timmany or too many, cause I certainly have too many! I have no idea what timmany cds are.
What time is it now?:: 6:20 pm (on a different day)
Lately, a brand of darker thoughts have been crossing my mind; thoughts of suicide, fighting, and destruction. This is, no doubt, because I had so much fun the past week and the Force is just coming back into balance. Howevery, it has really got me thinking, if a weary heart keeps the same weary tempo, should it beat at all? I'm not going to take a knife to my throat or anything (ha, atleast not yet) but I still wonder.
These bones ache for a fight but I fear the longing shall never be quenched. Curse the god that placed me in this age. This age when honorable fighting has diminished and greed will forever reign. Something tells me that the thoughts of an honorable past are niave dreams, a rough history softened by time. If only I knew the truth. World history has refused to stick to its promise of "World" and focused only on Europe which, regardless of my heritage, is a complete bore. I have no idea what the hell's happening in eastern Asia during, o say the crusades. All that I know of Asian history I learned reading Rurouni Kenshin!! Shit, a manga has tought me more then 9 years of history!!
I'm just so damn tired. Tired of routine. Tired of people. Someday, I want to just wander. Maybe I'll never come back. My deepest, strongest dream is to be gone from this world forever. To go from wandering the hallways to wandering the hill tops. I'm a romantic, a dreamer, not a realist. If in death I can find that, then so be it. But I've never been one to take the easy way out. I'll suffer, for a time. I know my body can't take much more. It's tiring. But I'll keep it up, I'll endure this world. Who knows, maybe I'll find what I've been looking for.
These bones ache for a fight but I fear the longing shall never be quenched. Curse the god that placed me in this age. This age when honorable fighting has diminished and greed will forever reign. Something tells me that the thoughts of an honorable past are niave dreams, a rough history softened by time. If only I knew the truth. World history has refused to stick to its promise of "World" and focused only on Europe which, regardless of my heritage, is a complete bore. I have no idea what the hell's happening in eastern Asia during, o say the crusades. All that I know of Asian history I learned reading Rurouni Kenshin!! Shit, a manga has tought me more then 9 years of history!!
I'm just so damn tired. Tired of routine. Tired of people. Someday, I want to just wander. Maybe I'll never come back. My deepest, strongest dream is to be gone from this world forever. To go from wandering the hallways to wandering the hill tops. I'm a romantic, a dreamer, not a realist. If in death I can find that, then so be it. But I've never been one to take the easy way out. I'll suffer, for a time. I know my body can't take much more. It's tiring. But I'll keep it up, I'll endure this world. Who knows, maybe I'll find what I've been looking for.
